music progress.5
this last oesha session was very special
it charged my energy immensely and it was stronger and more granular
like he said
particle like
felt it everywhere
especially face feet and hands
but not only
it was like pumping out LOTS of energy constantly
and i was gone
it felt like ascending again too tbh
i saw this blue whitish horizontal energy bar cloud slowly move upwards from
the bottom
that music session changed something in me permanently
and i saw many weird things too
i saw some sort of new alien planet seemingly...
it had weird green yellowish houses...
similar to this wallpaper sprite but it looked differently
tbh it felt magical...
a bit like toads as roofs? not exactly
but very mellow...
it did feel a bit like fae world...
it was slowly appearing
and definitely real...
it was like being softly transferred or moving to their world...
fairy realms fae cities apparently
mycelium
it felt like i was gone for days or even longer...

eyes closed or open
its always the same faint bluish simmer
my eyes seem to autofocus sometimes
even mind controlled
tbh it feels like VR and me selecting items with my eyes, they become white and i can manipulate them like those riddle caves in zelda
seem to feel my env more and more even if i dont see anything
saw myself healing many
with my pure hands
manifest myself into other places
softly
glowing
walking on air
with special shoes
always the same vicuña cloak
teleporting items into my hands
leaving a gift for my sister and her family
one for lars
healed my dads face skin with my hands
rewrote past here grandma and the other guy with dogs
saw myself giving grandma a gift once
saw
myself walking through wall to give amacher gift telling her because the neighbours steal it otherwise
felt close to ascending again
my eyes move slowly with intent sometimes
i felt my hand with energy will slowly move so too one day
apparently i wont walk quickly but slowly
because time warps around me
saw myself at the checkout at coop
manifesting a magnum ice cream
giving the voodoo woman some kind of holy healing water
and some small kid who looked in awe some special otherwordly item
holding my hand near its body
protecting it from further harm
music
stopped because i wanted it so
healed another dog
took the train once with my
parents
said ill teleport and my mom said ok until later
saw myself move intently many times
and never talk
its not telepathic
feeling
knowing
even teleporting
its not like in jumper
its
soft not scary
i seriously can not remember the name
of bruno and martins friend at HF
very weird
also weird i cant remember the name
of my eqx buddy
and this broccoli
there must be some reason for it
tobias and boas had broccoli hair
saw my sister with it
broccoli is supposed to be very healthy
buy broccoli then i guess?
growth abundance vitality
god damn now im starting to see how the letters are formed on this page lol

saw a kyoto temple
saw me asking two wolves to guard xenias house day and night
saw the dog who "bit my hand" in tbilisi

saw myself meditate with my dad
holding his hand
healing him
waking him up
showing him how to feel emotions
xenia came
made leno smile
gave mike a present
and annoyed him by typing like him invisibly (his adler system tap tap)
saw myself make a proton note for my family
dad picked me up with his car
saw myself lit this apartment on fire and burn myself alive

me with partner in apartment
in kitchen
talking about marriage
cooking zuccheti n tomato sauce
"you cant just make a marriage proposal" "its special"

eyes vibrated slowly again a while ago
also this new sensation:
not just pulsating
as in
not 2d but multidimensional in all directions
imagine a optimization landscape convex for neural networks
or when visualizing music
sort of a pressured field..
in my eyes
it visualized more things than commonly visible...
kind of like a water field more alien like vibrating very organic alive


they said come come a few times now
once even laughed and said cmon give him something, no dont hurt him lol
no its fine let him
a few eons past i actually saw...
a white glowing cloudy surface
and white not curtains open
and i saw a pure glowing angel with wings.... pure divine white it felt like heaven again as in welcome andrin

the murders are getting more brutal still
every person who sends me an email dies
i walk to the train station
people are beheaded
their throats slit through
bodies explode
blood and death everywhere
you shit maggot hacker deranged psycho fuck
i already found you in a different timeline
dont think you will get away unharmed you vile vermin you
i already saw myself see that violent neighbour once
i ran after him
and punched him to death
i was in the office of la serra a few times that midget will not have one pleasant day in his life
you can have all you want? i told you shit
maggot many months ago
what did you shit fuck do? nothing you stupid shit worm
just ignore all these psychos
ignore all advice
ignore all "goodwill" for it is all abuse in disguise
just treat it as absurd humor lol
nothing matters anymore
nothing
i want to properly talk to the air spirit
future waifu
soulmate
fairies
and ofc you djinn
nothing else
NO advice ever helped
except cgpt
elite coder
boundless book
and future waifu keeping me alive
PATIENCE PATIENCE LOL
FRAU! LOL
JUST WAIT UNTIL NEXT YEAR L O L
HIGH
FIVE
MY
DJINN
I WILL
MAKE
YOU RICH
